all begins with L

god.ihave.to.getover.this.

O yeni filmi bu aksam sinemada izlemek istiyoruz.

she a new film this evening in cinema to watch she is wanting.

because i’ll be an illegal immigrant in two weeks time (note: expiring visa) i’ll have to cross over one of the country’s borders and come back.

Options include:
1. iraq
2. iran
3. greece
4. armenia
5. bulgaria
6. georgia
7. syria
8. cyprus

hmm.. elimate “war torn” areas will pretty much leave me with no. 3, 5, 7. (greece & iran: done that). bulgaria it is.

The week took an upturn, like an endless chain of (economic) bell curves, the downward slope can only go so low. The weekend is here for a little bit of recklessness and a little time off from the browser. The ex is here in town, to see my new found love with her new found love. In Turkish we say, neden olmasin.

Why not.

i’ve lost interest in cigs. pretty sad about it.

if only women could do business the way men do with men, if only men could do business with women the way men do with men.

fluttr could be a domain name for (oh no not) another online social network, because that’s exactly what (/i haveinthestomach) i’m feeling right now before a first meet - offline.

;)

A creative agency is not complete without a gay boy.

“The hotel has been designed to meet the expectations of the textile companies and businessmen in the “Comfort” concept, it is an elegant building located in the city center.”

Frankly it is an eye sore - design targeting burly old men owning textile stores passed down from their forefathers. What ‘the expectations…’?!

Maybe hundred years down the road, it’ll turn into kitsch (and trendy), but for this era it’s just plain bad taste. They are meeting us today for marketing consultancy. I.cant.do.this. It’s against my principles.

deadline: may 2009
mission: portfolio
aim: full scholarship

evet.

i chose a city to live in for all its ideal intangibles, at the expense of ideal tangible acquisitions. two and half months on, i found myself struggling to find an equilibrium.

on one hand I have come so far as to having a decent conversation with the waitress in my new found spot - which turns out to be another pseudo french cafe playing turkish folklore and with chinese proverbs quoted at the back of its menu. i accidentally brought the french friend there and she almost could not forgive me, it’s equally blasphemous to bringing me to a malay restaurant in london.

on another, hurricane-globalcrisis came sweeping and i lost two of the only clients i could deal with (with baby turkish). two and half months on, i found myself with a deferred paycheck which value wouldnt even match a month’s worth of washing dishes in chinatown london.

to justify the self: networking darling networking, an office with my own desk over looking the bosphorus, golden sunsets on my right shoulder, having time to write this entry at office hours (in mids of random research on mobile and internet convergence) and perhaps a useful third language in the near future.

with neve campbell look alike sitting in front of me charting her future from a tiny cup of coffee residue, life could be worse than this.

so I woke up today, put in a little extra effort to optimism and settled on a verdict that there must be a silver lining in heavy winter clouds. the sun is brighter today than yesterday, literally.

______, I would (want to) work for/with/in

writer: monocle
designer: ideo, karim rashid, lacoste
advertiser: bbh
chef: my own restaurant
musician: feist and kate nash
electronic musician: just jack, lemon jelly
actress: the l word
director: marion cotillard
hotelier: yoo development
optometrist: theo eyewear

“English is the sexiest language on earth.” - this can only come from a drunk French.